I'm supposed to be the leading lady in my life!

the heading pretty much sums it up! this should be my fairy tale (meaning my life) so its not exactly going according to plan. funny thing is there should be a plan if things arent going according to the plan. planning isnt always easy... it involves actually setting out to do something... getting off your ass and doing something. life is just too complicated and it shouldn't be complicated at this point in my life. i'm too young to have a complicated beffuddled life. nothing is coheasive... its not working together. we make chick flicks to give ourselves hope that everyone has a fairy tale ending. when it gets to the point where you think prince charming is coming along it doesnt happen like you think. its not a matter of falling into his arms and thats the end... you cant live happily ever after with an idea of how it should be and what you think it is meant to be. why does the worst of it happen to the best of us? nothing really ever makes sense... you're supposed to be the leading lady of your own life right?