Well I still get that tickling feeling in my throat.

well last night was almost successful... i won't be using my dads laptop b/c it has a virus but i have a USB stick!! yay!! hopefully it works on the computer at school and everyone can see it. i'm praying the movie works on the computer too b/c it works on this computer but not on my dad's laptop. i'm just praying everything works like it should. tonight is the Spling Fling ( i spelt it wrong on purpose). i'm so excited! i'm going to courtney's house to get ready then afterwards we're sleeping over at leanne's!! so stoked... its going to be amazing. anywho this is my blog entry for the day b/c i won't get around a computer unless its for my T-plan. cheerio darlings!

Well George Gibbs certainly let himself have a real conversation now didn't he?

can it really get anymore difficult?? well i guess i'm done my powerpoint but its still only 9 minutes (exactly). that means i have like 6 more minutes of nothingness that i need to fill in... what the heck am i supposed to do?!?! oh well... its just the homeroom presentation... the next presentation is way more important b/c its worth 80 marks... this one is only 20 marks. still important but not that important. i just want to thank Kirstie personally b/c every time i'm having a bad day or something is really frustrating like this T-plan she always makes me feel better w/ her encouraging comments. i do appreciate all comments tho not just kirtie's comments. i just love my daughter that much! and i realize how ridiculous it is that i use play lines for the titles of my posts but i don't care. i love it! well i'm off for now!

Stringing some beans...

ok its all good now w/ the video that i have made but my whole powerpoint is exactly half the time of how long the T-plan has to be. now i'm trying to figure out what else to add to make it more time... i don't know if the sentence i did just now made sense grammatically but i don't really care. well i'm going to go add some stuff... i don't know what but i'll think of something creative:P

What I mean is, am I pretty?

transition plan is turning out to be a little difficult. i had to take a DVD i have and change it into a different file. its proving to be more tedious than i thought. i just checked it to see if the converter did a good job... it started the movie from the halfway mark:P AHHHHH!! so frustrating... i'm trying it a different way now so hopefully it works. i can't wait to just be done w/ it. tomorrow we're just presenting in front of our homerooms so it shouldn't be too bad... i hope mine is interesting enough that they don't fall asleep. right now i feel like one of those people who when they walk in the room people get up and leave and you think you're the problem. this feeling has nothing to do w/ my T-plan i just thought i'd share what i've been feeling lately. anywho it made me uber happy when people complimented me on my glasses and shoes today... not going to lie i crave attention sometimes. i know its crazy. anyways thats pretty much it. i might keep you up to date on my T-plan depending on how things work out. cheers!

Put your rubbers on!!

today was generally a poopy day. at the end of the day it seemed so much better tho. choir was cancelled due to the absence of Mr. A. i got to read my book until my mom picked me up from school. we went and picked up my new glasses which are amazing!! i'm so excited i'm wearing them tomorrow! then we went to costco and got lots of yummy food! my mom even bought white bread for me... i never get white bread. army & navy were having a shoe sale (danger danger!) i bought two pairs of shoes and they are freakin amazing!! i love them. and for someone who doesn't like pointy shoes i got a pair of black pointy shoes! i know crazy right? i think i'll wear the black ones on friday to the spring fling but tomorrow i'm wearing my red ones. so w/ everything that happened it actually turned out to be an ok day!

As far as that goes, speaking for myself...

well the canucks won... thats awesome. our pastor told us to keep our expectations low and so far its working. hopefully they'll be able to continue on this streak but i'm not keeping my hopes up. i can't wait till this is over. i really am not happy w/ myself... i always do something other than what i need to do for hw and it ends up screwing me up all day. i don't have any idea why i procrastinate its just in me. onto other things i'm still wanting to punch people in the face but not as much... just the slightest urge. anywho i'm just not putting myself in good positions and its making me even more crazy... i hate that i can't just buckle down and do things. oh well i'm sure i'll find a balance. i'm off for another crazy day at school :P see y'all soon. oh and one more thing i almost forgot HAPPY BIRTHDAY COURTNEY!! altho i'm pretty sure she doesn't read my blog but oh well.

You have no right playing here on Main Street!

well youth was good... not the best it could be tho. during worship the people behind me could not stop talking and i almost snapped and told them if they didn't want to worship God to go to another room and talk. but i didn't... i held it in. it was just the most irritating thing i wanted to punch them in their faces!! wow i'm realizing today i've wanted to be really aggressive w/ people... mainly w/ peoples faces. anywho then we went into small groups and that was ok... i just don't feel like i'm getting anything out of youth anymore. its more just a social gathering once a week. ma/b it will get better who knows. anywho i'm off to "bed"(meaning i'm doing the hw i should've finished b/4 youth). here is the pic i promised of my niece Chloe!! shes in the bathtub!

Cheerier thoughts...

well i'll be off to youth in a little while... i have hw for tomorrow but i haven't done it... i've been working on my transition plan. oh how exciting! i'd actually rather do my T plan than do hw that is due the next day its kind of weird. i guess its b/c i'm more excited about the stuff i'm doing after school than what i'm doing in school right now. i'm really fed up w/ school no joke... i'm ready to book it out of this joint and be done w/ it. i can't wait to graduate it will be so amazing... don't worry i will miss a lot of people and i'll come visit. its just the school part that angers me daily. math especially... i have no idea why i took math its not going to help me in life in any way shape or form. oh well i guess its just one more thing i'll have to endure. well i need to be going soon. toodles!!

George! Look sharp!

right now i have the nagging feeling that... oh i don't know how to say it. i just have a nagging feeling right now. i hated my dream i had last night... it was good but bad at the same time. it just made me upset and i wanted to punch someone in the face. i've never actually punched someone in the face. i wonder if it feels good to punch someone in the face. i'd like to punch the people that are so immature and they don't even realize it. thats how i'm feeling right now and i hate that feeling.

Is he sassy to you?

well its going to ba another short post but i figure i can spare a few minutes b/4 i hit the hay. my weekend was awesome and it went by way too quickly. saturday i ate food!! i did the 30 hour famine and my "first" meal was breakfast on saturday. so i had no energy whatsoever but i took care of both my neice and nephew for pretty much the whole day. it was great. my nephew loves his tricycle and he rode it all the way around the small block when i took him for a walk. then i vegged out for the rest of the night. sunday was church then chels mom and i went out to white rock to shop. i got ben & jerry's ice cream (chocolate fudge brownie) it was so good! i finished it off tonight which was pretty much the whole thing. don't judge me!! i went for a walk today so its all good. anywho thats pretty much what i've been up to summed up in a few sentences. i hope y'all are doing well. i'll post some pictures of Chloe in the bath tub!! i can't wait to embarass her when shes older!! good night!

I'm not living in a hole... the internet is back!

i know its been a while but the internet wasn't working... i will give you (meaning my blog readers) an update ASAP!!

Her mom buys the booze for minors, her grandpa steals and she pole dances (well not now)

i'm going to be honest here... i really don't want to go to the arts festival tonight:P i really don't want to perform at all. well thats besides the point.
today was grandparents day at school... courtney and i were adopted by Maddi's grandma and grandpa and grandma and papa. it was great fun... they took us out for lunch and i had chicken souvlaki. it was so delicious! so "my" grandparents are hilarious... papa called me the skinny one and it kind of implied that Maddi and Courtney were fat but of course thats not true. when we got back to school Maddi got out of the car and she lost the flip flop on her good foot... it made me laugh so hard. shes getting better w/ those cruches (sorry if its spelt wrong). we missed all of history which rocked. so this week has been pretty laid back... i'm just not excited for this arts festival. hopefully i'll have lots of fun tho anyways. hope to see you guys there!! (it starts at 6:30 in case you didn't know that already).

Oh look a snail is passing me by...

yesterday had to be one of the slowest days of my life... it was such a mindless day where i literally did nothing. my first class was Bible and we worked on our transition plans... i just checked my email found a couple pics to put in my powerpoint and that was all i could do. all my other pics are on my computer so i couldn't really do anything. next i had spare... i never really do anything in spare. for some reason we were talking about our morning routines and apparently i'm weird for only taking 5 minutes to eat and only 2 minutes to do my makeup. i also ate my lunch in spare b/c i was uber hungry. then lunch rolled around and that was good fun. then i had TA where i collected the recycling, i photocopied one page and then had to cut it all in half and the paper cutter wasn't exactly agreeing w/ me yesterday. then i erased pencil marks from maps that are used by the geo people. then i had math class.... it was a review class. i finished half of my chapter summary and then i didn't want to do anything else so i talked to Maddi and Lizbeth for the rest of class. choir was such a bore... then my mom came and got me early b/c she had a dentist appointment she forgot about so ya. that was my uber long dragged out day that took lots of effort to endure. anywho its time to go... oh theres an fine arts festival tonight if anyone wants to come. bye!

It's cruel I know, but I couldn't get myself to say anything. I went into it as blind as a bat myself.

everything reminds me
theres no escaping it
how can i forget?
its all around
i can't shake that feeling
regret and disappoinment
when will this fade?
its a roller coaster ride
theres ups and downs
wheres the balance?
everything reminds me
theres no escaping it.

Blogging...

wow i was so hyper for a while there... now i'm so exhausted... well i've actually been exhausted all day. now its really time for sleep but i must get clean first!! so today was pretty good not going to lie. i thought it's be a little crappy but i had a few things that made it better and happy. i'm not really specific about anything when it comes to my days and who or what made my day the way it was b/c it is a blog and anyone can read it so i try to be careful. my heart feels like its beating a mile a minute but really its just regular right now. that hazelnut hot smoothie just gave me a boost of energy and now its gone. i'm going to write a short poem and then have a shower and its off to bed for me.

Roses are red
the house is brown
i don't like moths
but i don't frown

this poem may not be 100% true so don't take it literally. i'm pretty sure i frown sometimes... my house is only partially brown and ya... good night y'all!!

Missing...

i'm missing many things... one of which is the play and the cast. i miss the play so much it gave me something to look forward to and dread (yes at the same time) all day. we need to have another cast party pronto b/c i think i'm going through post-play withdrawal. we need to party on a day thats nice and sunny out though b/c if we ever did it on a day like today it would suck but it'd still be fun. i think we should play "honey if you love me" that was truely epic last year. i just miss a lot of people right now... i'm not saying any names in particular but there are many people i wish i could talk to and just reminice w/ them. well i wish a HAPPY EASTER to all of you!!

It was a Good Friday... no pun intended

here are some pictures from our adventures in richmond where we used to live.

to the left is a picture of our old house where i spent the first two years of my life.

Dad's shirt says shut up and fish if you can't read it.

here is Spencer with his daddy... so cute!

this is one of the swans that we saw up close.

here is spencer standing beside raggedy Anne who was flying a small kite.

Come along now, and bring that bowl with you.

i know i'm ridiculous and quoting the play a lot but my lines just coincide w/ my life somehow... ma/b not in the same context but ya. so it is long weekend madness and i'm so excited to sleep in tomorrow!! tomorrow as a family we're going to Gary Point and just hanging out for the day... we will revisit our old house that i don't even remember and we'll watch people fly kites and just have a nice family day. i'm so excited... i almost feel like bringing a picnic. anywho the quote in the title just works b/c well it just makes sense in my head and i can't really explain it in words... but i'm so stoked for tomorrow. i'd like to thank all the people that comment on my blog b/c it makes me so happy!! i'd like to thank SB especially for commenting on pretty much every single one of my posts. oh!! i just remembered that i just watched LOST and it was amazing! i think i'm actually keeping up w/ all the information... i'm really not that confused by anything although some people r stuck in the 50's or 70's and then the rest are in present time like 2009. so ya tis quite weird but i enjoy the complication and figuring out who everyone is and how they've crossed paths b/4. anywho this is just a bit of a rant on nothing and i hope you can tell i'm in a good mood right now... odd but very good at the same time. have a good Easter Weekend everyone!!

this is the easter bunny that we found last year... actually we didn't find him at easter time but just felt like putting a pic of a bunny on here. we actually found this guy in our tractor!

The End of an Era... The Start of Something New

well today has been an eventful day... i'm just glad i got to relax at the end of the day. i got home from choir and just hung out at home. then my sis picked me up and i ran errands w/ her. i bought whoppers!! they are like one of my fav candies of all time... of course they are covered in chocolate b/c thats exactly what i need right now. chocolate is always a good thing. i may have a huge weight that was lifted off my shoulders today and it feels great but i still have that sick feeling in my stomach. its that sick feeling that you can't just shake off and you are hungry but you don't feel like you can eat anything but i force myself to eat otherwise i'm going to be hungry later. anywho i might be in for another restless sleep tonight... ma/b i ought to take some gravol so it won't be so restless. well i stink so i must have a shower as soon as the other person gets out of the shower. goodnight fellow bloggers and blog fans!

Waves of Grace

The walls are high, the walls are strong
I've been locked in this castle
That I've built for far too long
You have surrounded me, a sea on every side
The cracks are forming and I've got nowhere to hide

Now I see
The walls I've built are falling
And your waves of grace are washing over me

My heart's been hard, I have been blind
I have often worked so hard to keep you from my mind
I have ruled my life, in a palace built on sand
I want you to reign, Lord, take me by the hand

Lord please reign in every part
I give my life to you
I open up my heart
I want to be like you, I want to seek your face
O Lord please wash me in your awesome waves of grace

music seems to tell it like it is when you have no clue what's going on. sometimes it can give you peace of mind and sometimes it shows you what you've been blind to all along. music is how i release my emotions and right now this song seems fitting. this is my prayer...

...it'll stunt your growth, that's a fact.

well today didn't get much better... i wish life wasn't so complicated. right now i feel an enormous amount of guilt, regret and disappointment. this is not the way i want to live my life. right now i just need to get past this milestone in my life that is actually blocking the road i'm on that is life. there are some things i can't comprehend or wrap my mind around and it bugs the heck out of me. i've never felt so helpless in my entire life. i don't know whats wrong w/ me or what i'm doing wrong i just can't figure anything out. sometimes i want to wish it all away and start new... start w/ a blank slate but that doesn't always work. life ain't no etch'e'sketch. i know the weather is beautiful and i appreciate it but i find it hard to enjoy when i'm in such a mopey mood. i really just want to ball my eyes out and wish it all away... why is life so freakin difficult sometimes? i don't get it... i try to understand but i can't. i also feel an enormous amount of pressure right now too. i can't function properly and i don't know what i need to do. hopefully tomorrow is a new, brighter and better day.

... I won't have you gobbling like wolves...

i just wanted to express the frustration i'm feeling right now. i'm really frustrated... just w/ myself and some people. i'm frustrated at myself b/c i didn't do my homework. i'm frustrated at some people well b/c i just am... i can't really explain it. a good thing tho my parents r home from mexico. altho they r so loud in the morning that i always wake up like an hour b/4 i need to wake up... thats why they r frustrating me. anyways... thats my shpeel for the morning... i might have some more to write later today but don't get ur hopes up. have a good day everyone who reads this...

Thinking... That's All

so this has been a weird weekend. i've felt so tired all the time and i can't figure out why. ma/b its all the fresh air i've been getting since i've been out in the beautiful weather we've been having. i'm still in a weird funk where i just feel like a let down... i don't know what it is. i seem so out of it and i can't quite put my finger on it. AHA!! i think i... no never mind.... i thought i solved it but no i didn't. i think i need some double stuffed oreos... ma/b that will help. i just wish i were in a better mood right now. i like being in good moods. i think i may be in a good mood tomorrow as i will get to see my favourite (and only) sexy beast. well tomorrow is going to be another day! everyones restin in aldergrove. you get a good rest now too. goodnight!

TODAY!!

ANNA COMES HOME TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO FREAKIN EXCITING!!!!

it will be the highlight of my day!

exciting news!!

ANNA BANANA/SEXY BEAST IS COMING HOME TOMORROW!!!!!!! I CAN'T WAIT TILL SHE COMES AND I CAN SEE HER EVERY WEEKDAY!! I'M SO FREAKIN' EXCITED!!!! THATS MY STORY FOR TODAY!!

Blah...

today sucks. its april fool's yet there was snow... not cool. now its raining... still not cool. i have to write an enormously long essay... also not cool. anywho i hope your day is going better than mine :P