I'm dancing with myself...

house sitting... well what can i say? i'm too young to be going crazy... at least i'm talking to the animals and not just talking to myself. so far getting a good nights sleep constitutes my knees falling asleep... ya u read correctly my knees falling asleep. i woke up this morning and my knee was numb... dont ask how it happened it just did. so i had to move it around to get the feeling to come back. it was all very new to me. i have learned that Molly (the dog) drinks a lot. i learned it the hard way. i came home and there was a wet patch on the floor at the top of the stairs. it took a lot of paper towel to get that out. i just got a lovely text messsage from telus saying that they charged me too much money on my last bill! so i get a credit on my next bill!! yay! i love saving money! today is a rainy day and what better lunch to have than lipton chicken noodle soup? i thought it was quite appropriate. i also have my coffee which was my first attempt at making coffee with this coffee machine. its not the best ive had... McDonalds coffee is way better!i think it may need to be warmed up a bit... that might help. hopefully my next attempt will prove to be better. i cut my nails last night... i just realized i missed one... i dont know how i do it. sometimes i wish i was in hawaii with the people i'm house sitting for... then i realize none of my wishes come true :( i'll be dreaming about it tho. i had a good dream last night. this guy asked me out in a bit of an indirect way but it made me feel special and loved. i think my dreams r better than reality... i want my dreams and reality to switch places! the nightmares can stay right where they r tho. i think i need some chocolate. i promised Molly we'd go to Petsmart so maybe we'll do that now. then i can stop somewhere quickly to get some chocolate. so a relief for me is that Lost is finally starting to make sense and questions are being answered. i watched this weeks episode online and wow... Richard Alpert is just a crazy Spanish man. locke is not locke and its annoying me. claire is a crazy lady... she has turned into Rousseau. i like benjamin linus... seeing this side of him the side that has no idea what is going on is awesome. his sense of humour makes everything alright. those of you who read my blog but dont watch Lost i'm sorry if this is just jibber jabber that doesnt make any sense to you. anywho i think i am done with my rant and i'm ready to go to petsmart. Toodles!!

What the freakin heck?!

who knew that ur heart could bruise and crack but not break? this heart of mine is about to pump out of my chest. i'm just so damn hurt right now and i dont know how to say it. i am utterly and truely and royally pissed off. i could blow up in an instant. i dont know what to do, but my heart is aching. could i please just throw up now? would that make me feel better?? i'm trying to be mature but its hard when it makes me so crazy!! i've fallen hard and i can't seem to get up... there's no hand to lift me up. what on earth am i suppose to do?