Misdirection

I need direction... I don't where I'm going in life and everything seems to be falling apart. I don't know where to go from here. I keep praying hoping that I'll get an answer from the man upstairs but I haven't felt his presence in my life much lately. I'm really trying to just live each day as it comes. It's getting harder and harder to do. If there was no such thing as money then there would be no need for jobs. would we be happier? would we be as greedy? would it be this difficult to make life desicions? we'll never know. I'm trying to be positive about everything but its hard when there are people around you who make it impossible to be joyful or pleasant. those people just have to bring down everyone with them and it doesn't help the situation at all. it makes things worse for everyone. get over your big personality and huge issues because at the moment you are stuck with them so do the best you can with what you have. don't take it out on everyone else around. suck it up and stop being the rock that drags everone to the depths of the ocean. I can't take some of this crap anymore. I'm tired of it and it needs to stop. i'm only one person and not eveything in the world can be honky dory or revolve around certain people. unless you are the earth's axis then you are not the center of it!!! I continue to pray but sometimes there is not much hope. I hang on to what little hope is left and that's the best I can do. Au revoir...