Because is not an answer.

so there are some people that find every excuse in the book. these people need to be more considerate to the people they are leaving behind because of these excuses. It seems I have fallen victim to this time and time again. this time more than others. in the beginning you brush it off don't think much of it, but when it becomes a reoccuring senario you begin to wonder what you have done wrong. It is not always necessarily something you have done wrong though. the optomisstic look at it is that its not you its them. thats being hopeful, but it is sometimes true depending on the case. how can you tell this person how you are feeling when you don't even see them face to face? there does not seem to be an easy solution. I guess the best way to confront it is to just lay it out on the table for both you and the other to see. give all the facts and be brutally honest. It may not land you where you hoped to be, but at least it has been thrown out there in the open. what else is there to do? Toodles!!

On the edge of your seat

I like riding roller coasters, but not every day. every day is a little excessive. right now I'm riding the downward spiral and its making me nausious and sick to no end. sometimes this roller coaster doesnt even stop to think thouroughly about what the heck its doing. it plummets when you least expect it and that just drops you down into the barrier of grief and agony. sometimes the only thing you can do is think optimistically even though it may be a hard task to do with a smile on your face, especially when you might be about to vomit. lets aim our vomit at the roller coaster but even though that may help you feel better it can drop you even deeper than you imagined. sometimes trying to battle through the twists and turns the best you can ends up hurting more than just stopping the ride. where does it go from here? where does it turn? when does it come back to the light? or is it lost forever in the darkness? ta ta for now or for always?

Feel free to disagree...

wow 2 posts in one month... thats an accomplishment.
I just wanted to state my opinion on Avatar now that I've finally seen it. Its over-rated. I'm not saying it was the worst movie ever, dont get me wrong. I see where people are coming from, how the graphics are amazing etc... yes the graphics are great, but the storyline predictable. boy meets girl. girl falls in love with boy. together they fight forces of evil. in the end boy changes for girl. ta da. I dont mean to be cruel but someone has to be. all in all it was an entertaining movie and I would watch it again. on a scale of 1 to 5, 1 being bad and 5 being perfect, I rate it as a 3.85. Yes I used a decimal. The End.

I'm Alive!!

how do you do? It has been quite a while since I last posted and I think that is why every emotion has been building up bc I need to use this as my outlet. altho I try to stay positive... you know the glass is half full.

my life has become routine... wake up do stuff go to work come home sleep and repeat. as much as I don't need a man right now it would be nice to shake things up a bit. the guy who picks up the dead animals at my work... well I'm not sure but I think he's flirting with me. it could be a figment of my imagination but notheless it makes me feel better about myself.

One thing I have to look forward to is going to ITALY!!! I'm uber excited. I will be going with my best friend Courtney and it will be a great 2 weeks of vacay!! I can't wait. so as i ponder that trip on the horizon I'm questioning what I'm doing with my life. I really dont know what is next for me. Ive grown up with the idea of working, getting married, travel and then have kids and be a stay at home mom. so far that plan has not really been put into action. As much as I don't want to go back to school it might be a good option for me now. we will see what happens. I like flying by the seat of my pants but that's not always the best way to move ahead in life.

so as I contemplate things further I may make a decision.
Thanks to my readers for being so patient.
Ta ta for now!