Time...

today has been really weird... i've felt like i'm mentally absent from everything. i'm really slow and just very spacy. for a few minutes just now it felt like time was frozen b/c the trees weren't moving... they just stood still. i don't really know if ur getting what i'm trying to say here but i'm going to keep rambling on. time just seems to be fluctuating and i can't keep track of it and then i feel really disoriented. time is one of my biggest fears... not having enough of it here on earth. everything goes by w/ every day and we keep living life. what if it were to just stop or change? if i don't make sense don't worry about it... it happens a lot where i ramble and i don't make sense. now anna is gone... on a plane and somehow it doesn't feel too different. well actually thats a lie its kind of put me off-balance and ma/b thats why i'm so weird today. so subconciously i realize that there is something missing and its setting my mind and body off balance w/ everything i was doing today. i guess that one hug i get from anna every day has some sort of effect on my life... i really don't think i'm making sense but it makes sense in my head and i think thats ok. i don't even know if anyone has read my blog or even knows i have a blog so this could really just be as pointless as ever. i've told people about it but ma/b i should send them a link. anywho my whole persona has been offset today by the mere fact that anna is gone. I MISS YOU ANNA AND I LOVE YOU TOO!! i can't wait to hear about all the cool things that happened on ur trip. this is Sheila signing off...