On the edge of your seat

I like riding roller coasters, but not every day. every day is a little excessive. right now I'm riding the downward spiral and its making me nausious and sick to no end. sometimes this roller coaster doesnt even stop to think thouroughly about what the heck its doing. it plummets when you least expect it and that just drops you down into the barrier of grief and agony. sometimes the only thing you can do is think optimistically even though it may be a hard task to do with a smile on your face, especially when you might be about to vomit. lets aim our vomit at the roller coaster but even though that may help you feel better it can drop you even deeper than you imagined. sometimes trying to battle through the twists and turns the best you can ends up hurting more than just stopping the ride. where does it go from here? where does it turn? when does it come back to the light? or is it lost forever in the darkness? ta ta for now or for always?