Day after day after day...

lately it has been a little hectic in my life and thengs have come up and it is really not the best timing but what can you do? I'm feeling kind of lost in the fog of every day. everything I do in a day is just automatic reaction especially at work. I feel that I really need to break out of this funk, but how? I need to find something to keep me occupied. photography is my hobby but there are only so many pictures you can take of the same flowers in your own backyard. do I need to venture out? i don't think I need to venture I just need someone or something inspiring to just go with and take pictures. I have not been inspired lately and it gets very frustrating. my best inspiration was when I took millions and millions of pictures of flowers. I went non-stop for at least a few months. it was a streak that I wasnt ready to stop until I realized that the passion for it died out. Ive been waiting for a new passion but really what I have found is people... people in the natural state. not posed. just in the natural state not trying to look beautiful or trying to get the best side of them in the picture. just plain running around aloof like kids. my friends have been willing subjects but I want to expand and I don't know how. I know taking a course on it would help but to tell you the truth I like learning on my own. figuring out things by myself. making discoveries. it is kind of like in drama when you put on a skit or play one of the things that need to happen in a scene is a discovery. in photography I learn things about my camera and how everything work and I also discover God's creation through the lens. I dont know if an inspiration will get me out of this robotic day after day routine that is on rerun, but I hope and hope is all I can ask for in this time of desperation. I'll be back!